the matrix

Unpacking Our Internal Affairs

Topics: Looking Within, Narrative and Beliefs about Ourself, Death of the Ego, Social Conditioning on Higher Levels of Consciousness.

The truth is no one is going to save us from our own internal struggles. That it doesn’t matter how much we depend or put expectations on others about wanting them to heal those as aspects of our self. We were given free will so we could choose the path and the way of our living. God, the Creator, The Universe, the Divine, however, we label the higher consciousness it doesn’t change the fact that we were given free will. - There are entities and other types of consciousness that do not have the best interest of humanity. That they would rather see us give up our freedom with our free will by creating illusions that we have none in the first place. - The war that is occurring within our society today is not with our physical body but with our consciousness. This war has been occurring for many centuries and each time these entities reincarnate on Earth their consciousness also evolves.

We have many things that are not in our control. Such as how our society has been running or constructed. Many of us don’t see how our own programming and conditioning have affected us. That we are not attuned with our intuition due to our own internal battles and struggles. - This war occurring is not about fighting one another. It is breaking out of a mental prison that has no visible cage or bars. Instead, those bars and cages are our self-limiting beliefs, negative thinking patterns, self-sabotaging behaviours, our codependency, narcissistic traits, the lack of faith in ourself and the distorted views of the higher levels of consciousness ie. God. -

Before we should focus on reconnecting with the higher consciousness, we have to reconnect with our own higher consciousness, which is also known as our Higher Self. Each and one of us have this aspect within us. It’s just having to find it underneath all the social, family conditioning and our self-limiting beliefs. It’s healing and reclaiming fragments of our self that we have abandoned due to wanting to accept. When we begin to heal and reclaim fragments of ourself we will begin to see that we are our own hero. - That we were the only person that could have healed those internal struggles. We go along the journey and path so we gain a level of experiences that teaches us aspects of our self. Which are reflected back to us by the people we have invited into our life. Each and one of us are reflecting fragments of our self. Whether we view it as ‘toxic’, ‘negative’, ‘positive’, or ‘beautiful’ those fragments that stand out to us from others are the fragments that we need to find within our self. There is a reason why certain traits or behaviours get us sucked in or drawn in.

Observing how we react towards those traits or behaviours is going to tells us which direction we need to go within. If we were triggered it is most likely that we have to do Shadow Work or if we begin to doubt our self then maybe there is a need to learn self-love and care. With our free will, we can choose to look within and find the root cause of that attraction.

There is a reason why only an individual can heal their internal struggles. That is because only that individual knows what they’ve been through. - With going within there are tools we need to take such as honesty, compassion, open-mindedness, empathy and accountability. Along the way of going within, we will find other tools that we learn during the earlier stages. As each process and cycle, we go through are needed so we can learn or overcome certain circumstances to have a better understanding of our self or a situation. - It’s taking the lessons as valuable gold, as those gold are the key to ascending our consciousness.

With looking within there is not only learning but also unlearning. We get taught certain beliefs or conditioning either about our self, life or how the world works. Those beliefs and conditioning are not always an alignment with who we truly are. - Such as the idea of masculinity and femininity. We were conditioned that each of them was something that was based on our gender or the way we act. Femininity has been suppressed within our society and has attachments that come with that term. So does the term masculinity. When we view both the term in the form of energy and frequency we will come to see that we can hold both of those within our self. Which we do. The definition for both of them is different from what we have been conditioned to think. Feminine energy is simply our intuition, the part of us who are open to receiving from outside of our self, embracing stillness and whereas masculine energy is in the sense the ‘doing’ part, where we use our energy to take actions on what our intuitive messages we have been getting to cultivate those in psychical form. We both need energies to work with one another. We might not even be consciously aware that we are using both. We might perceive that we are only using one because of the definition we hold with both of the terms. - There are other things we need to unlearn during the process of healing, ascension and initially stepping into our power.

Each and one of us hold certain beliefs and narrative about ourself that affect the way we move in life. It’s initially our blueprints on who we are, what we deserve, what we should move toward. Those same blueprints dictate what path to take. When our blueprints are base on lacks, either from a lack of self-love, worth, trust, faith etc. those same lacks are what we are going to settle for. Meaning that when we hold such a negative perception of ourself we will settle in relationships, career, path or life in general. - The narrative we hold and tell our self every day have also shaped those blueprints. That same narratives are what we have cultivated from a young age. What our parents, peers and authority figures have told us about our self. Which are just projection of their own self-limiting beliefs and judgements. The narratives we tell our self are not always conscious; some of them are tucked away within our subconscious and we might not even be aware that we are following them.

There is a process that we go through with healing and going within. This process of finding and becoming aware of our own narratives and beliefs comes with that. With looking within, there is a portion we need to let go of control of. Meaning that not all of our healing can be done when we want it too and not all the fragments that we want to see can be seen. There are a process and timing which we do not control. - Personally, for me I found it ironic, that going through a process of learning control of my own emotions to only realise that I then needed to let go of that sense of control. Which I believe is needed, because it puts us in the process of ‘The Death of the Ego’.

Our Ego is part of our psyche, it’s something we can not ‘kill’ or ‘get rid off’. It’s the part where we learn to humble it down. Meaning reconstructing our position in society. When we are triggered by being awakened, we realise how we are all connected. That each and one of us are just having our own reality and experiences. That’s why we reflect fragments of our self with one another because we are all the same ball of energy. - The way our society has been conditioned and constructed it creates this idea of superiority. That we are better than others if we hold certain status within our society or even relationships. That superiority is attached to material possessions. That we get conditioned to believe that we are nothing but our human body and that once we die all parts of our self are gone. What occurs after our death is something nobody holds hardcore evidence on. It’s just one of those things we know that will occur one day, as life and death are the polarities of a new beginning. -

Our Ego is constructed and conditioned to believe that our value and worth are attached to worldly possessions such as the type of career we hold in society, the relationships we have, the qualifications or the amount of money we hold. When we begin to believe and create a narrative that we are superior to others because of those things we are operating from a place of unawakened Ego. Where we begin to seek out more worldly possessions or chase a certain status to feel worthy or valuable within our self and society.

Our Ego is part of the first layer of our psyche which is our consciousness. That part we can tap into with no problem. The term ‘Death of the Ego’ is a metaphoric experience. As all our transformations and process we go through, there is a sense of death within each and one of them. As we ascend and evolve our consciousness a part of our self dies along when ascending. When someone dies we do not judge them, we simply create a celebration and a time to grieve their time on Earth. That is what we need to do as well when certain fragments of our self are not coming along in evolution.

There are many layers within everyone's internal struggles. We genuinely are the best and biggest expert on our self. We always believe that someone else is going to rescue us from our internal struggles when we are younger only realising that we are the one who comes to rescue ourself. When we offer a shoulder to cry for someone, a compassionate space or just an ear to listen we need to be able to give those aspects to ours elf too. Deep down we have parts of our self that crave to be heard and seen by us, which is rooted within our Inner Child. It’s about offering those aspects to our self as well as others around us. We can choose to take action toward learning to love and be our own saviour. We have free will for a reason. We have that sense of freedom of choice. - Looking within comes with healing not just our self but also the faith in the higher consciousness. Healing is a process and not a destination. I believe there is no ending to healing. We just begin to reconstruct the definition and the term healing as we go along our journey.

We live in a society that uses religion as a way to control the mass population. It also has created divisions between humanity. That we have ranked religious intuition with one another. Where many people operate from their Ego feeling as their religious belief makes them superior to others. - Religion brings a sense of community and belonging. That’s why many people turn towards that direction. There is a polarity that comes with religion, the light and the shadow.

I personally do not agree with any type of institutions that oppress certain groups of people because they do not fit in with their constructed beliefs. When people use God as an excuse as a justification for abuse or horrific crimes, it creates this distortion within the higher levels of consciousness. When people use God as a way to judge others (example) for their sexual orientation or their preference in romantic partners, it creates a division and separation within humanity. These types of judgements and justifications are just small examples of how people manipulate the view on God. It gets us to lack faith in something higher and bigger than us. - It doesn't matter how we label God, we can call it the Universe, the Creator or the Divine. Either way, it’s a Higher Consciousness that we can not even grasp the full concept due to our ‘human mind’. In the higher levels of consciousness there are no labels, as we are all one and connected with the Universe, the Source, the Creator, God.

When going within we need to heal and unpack our belief systems within the higher levels of consciousness that are outside of our self. It’s about seeing why we hold certain beliefs on ie. God and where did they come from? We can label it however we feel comfortable. What is important is that we have to heal and reclaim that part of divinity that is connected to a much higher level of consciousness. It’s about replugging our self to that Source of energy and unhooking our self from the social conditioning of God. - The views on Heaven and Hell are distorted. I don’t see why we couldn’t experience both here on Earth. As we know many people experience Hell. Where they are going through a circumstance every day that makes them feel as they are in Hell or dying. The term Heaven is different for everyone. Not everyone has the same view of what Heaven looks and feels like to them. - Like I’ve stated nobody knows what happens when we die, there is no hardcore evidence on it.

There has been an illusion that has been cast on Earth that this place resembles Hell. - The reason why we ascend our consciousness and reclaim fragments of our self is a way to reclaim the divinity on Earth. Like I’ve stated at the beginning of this piece. There are entities and other consciousnesses that no do have the best interest in humanity. That they will cast illusions and distorted views to fuel their own agendas. - Healing, ascending and reclaiming fragments of our self is a way to reclaim our soul. It’s a way to live out our authenticity and our purpose here on Earth.

Many walk around not knowing their true purpose and they blindly follow the constructed programming that we are given within our social conditioning. When we heal, ascend and reclaim we also receive those aspects of our self. The reason why we are here on Earth, (which is much bigger than us) is to reclaim the divinity that we were all supposed to live by. The war we are fighting is a spiritual one and it’s attacking our divinity and wanting us to abandon our self.

It’s time to reclaim ALL fragments of our self rather than abandoning them. Our authentic and true self is underneath all the social and family conditioning. It’s just digging within our self to find that version and live it out. We all hold such power of greatness, beauty and love within each and one of us. It’s just learning to have faith in our self and trust that the efforts we put into learning to unconditionally love our self and others are being seen. - What we put out into the universe comes back to us, in some shape or form. Begin by embracing ALL fragments of our self, from our emotions, past, present and the fragments we have abandoned.

Sometimes we have to tear everything down about ourself and everything else around us in order to rebuild a more secure and stable foundation that will stand across time. Not all new beginnings are external, some happened within before our external world can catch up.

I believe it is never too late to heal, ascend, reclaim fragments of ourself, go after what we desire or change. - It’s just a matter of choice.

BE KINDER, LESS CRITICAL

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Ascending From the conscious to the Unconscious to Collective Consciously


Our psyche is divided into three parts which are the Conscious (C), Subconscious (SC) and the Collective Unconscious (CUC). 

We know that the Subconscious is the part of our psyche that we have no control over and very limited access. The CUC is the part where we realise we are all connected and that we all one. Just a giant ball of energy and within that giant ball each individuals having their own experience on Earth. To be able to access the CUC we have to be able to unpack and get through our SC. In our SC lays our deepest wounds and circumstance, events or experiences we have suppressed. Those circumstances, events and experiences have their own attachments of emotions, which is why many of us decide not to unpack our SC. 

Once we unpack and reconstruct our SC we are able to tap into the CUC. This is why people choose to do so as this is the part where we have our awakening to oneself of our experiences. 

The structure of the concept of the human psyche is much deeper than the Conscious, Subconscious and the Collective Unconscious. Carl Jung, a famous and well-known psychoanalyst and psychiatrist have studied and theories the concept of the human psyche. His theories and studies to this day are used to understand our human psyche. By educating ourself about the human psyche and it’s a way of working on understanding our own.

Our psyche is an amazing system within our body. Not only can it tap into the material world it can also tap into the spiritual world. Where many believe does not exist. There are many theories we can come up with in regards to where our Consciousness goes, after our death. Although there is no hardcore evidence on this. We were given a free will for a reason, we were put in certain family dynamics and bodies for a reason. There are lessons we need to overcome in regards to the uncontrollable positioning we are in. As those lessons help us evolve and grow our consciousness which brings in the puzzle pieces missing within our picture. Which is funny enough, a smaller part of the Big Picture or the Cosmo. - 

This is why I preach healing and why I believe it is part of ascension. We have all gone through certain circumstances that have wounded us in some way. Those circumstances we had no control over. It’s put us in a position to heal ourself or repress it. It’s not about reliving those moments, it’s understanding that certain things in the world we have no control over. That whatever the past circumstances were something we aren’t meant to carry the burden off for the rest of our lives. It’s teaching us to let go and before we can let go we have to be able to acknowledge that it is there. 

We can go our entire lives ignoring and denying parts of ourselves. Although by doing this we are not living to the fullest capacity we came here to do. Underneath the wounds, hurt or pain is a light. A light that will help us shine through the deepest and darkest parts of ourself. From personal experience, underneath my traumas was the light of resilient, courage, strength, bravery and beauty

It’s having to acknowledge all those hurt, wounds and pain before we can see those ball of light. Acknowledging also come with its own light which is compassion, understanding, empathy and forgiveness. Everything has its own light and SO DO WE!

We have to embrace the light beforehand. We have to see our own beauty and learn that we are more than our physical bodies. That this lifetime might have not been our first. Having an open mind and letting go of our Ego.

Letting our Higher Self live in a time where we are being baited out to live under fear, illusions and destruction. 

The term ‘human experience’ includes our emotions, our experiences, our past, present and future. Included the bad, good, the ugly and the beauty. It’s about embracing them all and learning that we are multidimensional beings that decided to evolve our consciousness and soul/spirit. Being open to the idea that there is more to life than the physical and the material world lets go of the concept of endings. That we are not meant to stay in a certain form forever. That we are constantly changing, evolving and growing whether we are consciously aware of this or not. 


Spirituality is about embracing this concept and connecting to our Higher Self. It’s not about dressing, eating or behaving a certain way. As everyone’s spirit is very different and uniquely made. Just because we are all connected from the same ball of energy does not mean we are all the same. We might have similarities although never the same. It’s embracing the uniqueness and difference we have. It’s about experiencing the human realm in the full scope of it all. We can not experience the full scope of the human experience if we are living under illusions.

The term ‘woke’ and the idea of spirituality has become mainstream. Everyone sees a level of corruption, distractions, illusions and egotistical mindsets within the people in power. Those things are something we can not hide. They exist and as more people awaken to these illusions we begin to see the lies we all live in. 

The real question is not ‘are you woke?’. The REAL question is ‘are you awaken and aware of your OWN illusions, you live out?’

That’s why healing is a must during ascension. We can not ascend to a higher level of consciousness if we are living out illusions within our inner world. We can lie and denial to ourself although we are only creating illusions. Which blocks us from our own blessings and greatness, making us our own worst enemy.  Again, we have a free will a reason. We can choose to be ignorant or choose to turn the light on. - With our chooses comes with actions and those actions have consequences and outcomes. 

Remind ourself that we have no control over others. That others prefer the company of misery as that energy is much more comfortable and familiar to them. - Do not drain or deplete our own energy when trying to change others. As those are not something we can control or should want to. - We are given free will for a reason. We have a choice between ignorance or the truth.

From the movie The Matrix

From the movie The Matrix


BE KINDER, LESS CRITICAL