Free Will

ASCENSION

 Topics: Alignment, Inner Work, Healing, Breaking Cycles, Shadow Self and Work, The Ego, Death of The Ego, The Collective Healing, Blessings in Disguise.  


My decision to embark into healing put me on a spiritual path. It was very unexpected. I didn’t realise it would take me in this direction, down a rabbit hole. For me, I love history and conspiracy theories. It began with watching documentaries about the mainstream history which then lead me to learn about the ancient civilisation and just down the rabbit hole of the other side of history. A side that it is not taught within the education system. 

I started with the fascination about the importance of cats within the ancient Egyptian, which then took me to the Pyramid of Giza to the malefic statues in Easter Island, then to Peru and then to the temples in Jordan. Those sights and tourist attractions caught my eyes and especially the Pyramid of Giza. When I dug deep and researched into the Pyramid I came across mind-blowing facts about it. The position and the structure of the Pyramid was something out of this world. The precision of the cut stones and the alignment it had with the stars and the sky. The exact measurement of true north and knowledge that the ancients had that the education system did not teach us. 

Alignment is important within the ascension journey. We are not aligned at first as the condition we live in. The ways our society has been structured is on purpose, the generations on Earth now have been conditioned in a way that we have to unlearn and reconstruct our own belief systems. Which will align us to our true purpose and with the stars just like the Pyramid of Giza. Maybe we are not supposed to know how that amazing monument was built, what matters is what it symbolises which is the perfect alignment and relation it has with the Universal law. - Believes it or not numbers are one way of how the Universe communicates with us. Not the way math has been taught within our educational system. But the basic math from 0-9, it is called Numerology. Each number has a different meaning that coincides and gives us guidance on what we should focus on in re-aligning with our authentic self. A certain combination of number and the way we perceive it can give us a boost of encouragement that is from our spiritual team. 

With alignment comes with doing the inner work, and what that means is going within. - Letting go of old belief systems that are tethered from the past which disturbs and stops us living our authentic self. Re-constructing our mindset and blueprints from our past conditioning is very important. When looking within, we begin to see some of those blueprints and programming that we have adopted throughout our life. Those same blueprints and programming we have been unconsciously following. In certain stages of our life, those same blueprints and programming have helped us, either to survive and get by or get some level of acceptance and validation. Those blueprints and programming are not something to shame or judge... During the process of going within, we have to let go of shame and judgement. We can not shame and judge ourself for our past behaviours as those same behaviours has lessons embedded within them. In those lessons, we can gain growth and a level of awareness we might not have had access to if we didn’t experience certain things or partake in a behaviour. 

Healing our past traumas and wounds that might still be bleeding out on to others and ourself, is important during our ascension journey. With healing our wounds and hurts we are breaking intergenerational traumas that have been past down through parental teaching. The way our parents were brought up which then altered and conditioned them in the ways of how we have been brought up. It is a cycle that our bloodline has gone through. A cycle that not many will be aware of or they are on. When we realise that we are on a cycle (example) of seeking out validation and acceptance from others; a sign of codependency. We begin to see our condition patterning and programs we have adapted from our upbringing. We also see how our parents’ upbringing influenced their way of parenting, giving us no room to blame and hate on the way we have been brought up. When we see that their way of teaching has influenced a level of independence and growth for us, we remove resentment. That our parents also broke certain cycles that build a foundation for us breaking more cycles. It is about not forgetting that our parents also have put in work to shine a certain way. It might not be a way that resonates within us, although it is their way. Holding that compassion not just for us but for them also for breaking cycles, that helped and guided us to break more on our own.

When we break these cycles of (example) co-dependency not only are we setting a new level of standards for ourself, we are also creating a new foundation for the future bloodline. That will benefit future generations, where they will no longer seek out validation and acceptance outside of themselves. Having that in mind when we breaking cycles is important, we are not the only ones who will benefit from cycle being broken. We are the catalyst for something so much bigger than us. 

Breaking cycles is a very heavy process as we are not only breaking a patterning that our recent generation has endured but a cycle that has been repeated throughout many generations of the bloodline. Having to break years of patterning can be daunting as those around us who still follow the same old patterning can see this as a ‘threat’ or a ‘dysfunction’. Not on their wellbeing but for their Ego. Our Ego is the part of our psyche that the Monks also calls as ‘the monkey brain’. Our Ego is constructed and developed throughout our upbring and conditioning. We all know our society is built from a patriarchy viewpoint. Where there is a hierarchy that ranks us from ‘highest’ to ‘lowest’. Oppressing certain groups because it created a way of dividing us. As if we are not connected, casting an illusion of separation. 

Our Ego also creates narratives that influence our wellbeing and how we move in the world. When we have unhealed parts of ourself our Ego can disguise itself as ‘our self’. Meaning we begin to believe that we are only our Ego. That ‘thinking’ in our mind is us and the narrative that we tell ourself every day is who we really are. Those same narratives that we might not even realise we have been following. Those narratives of (example) being not worthy of success or being loved so we end up settling. Those narratives we have been telling ourself for years that it has become our programming and blueprints, that influences how we move in the world. Those same narratives our Ego feeds on. Our Ego isn’t separated from us, as our Ego is part of us. It’s just how it’s been conditioned and programmed. During our ascension journey, we come to a point called ‘the death of the Ego’. This part is very important and needed. It is metaphorically speaking and symbolises the reconstructing and rebuilding our foundations; that isn’t set on putting ourself higher than others and letting go of the structure of competing with one another. We begin to see that life isn’t a competition. That our mindset and ‘personality’ are very flexible and continuously changes. Accepting these concepts makes the ‘death’ process much less of a fight and not as hard to detach from. - That advice that many of us get told when we get caught in a rip current which is, not fighting it and staying calm. As fighting, it will cause more energy and will likely leave us no energy to swim horizontally away from the current. -


The death of our Ego is part of the ascension journey. I was told that animals fear us because of our Ego. They can sense the level of Ego some might have. When we detach from our Ego and become one with the EcoSystem, we will notice that animals tend to come closer to us. We can energetically and telepathically connect with them, similar to our pets. Where we know when they are hungry or need to go out in the yard to go toilet; it is that inner knowing.


Spirituality has become a mainstream trend. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be attuned with our spirituality. Although there is a bypass of the shadow aspect. Where many only promote and believe in love and light. Which is true, we do have those aspects within us. Although we also have a shadow aspect. When we deny a part of ourself we begin to accumulate those denial parts as toxic behaviours. Either by being passive-aggressive, being triggered when others do voice about the shadow aspect or see those repressed parts of ourself being reflected onto us. The most important part of ascension is the shadow work. All the repressed parts of ourself that we’ve hidden, ignored and denied. Doing our shadow work comes with the inner work. We begin to see our own toxic behaviours and begin to move forward into changing them. Change comes with ascension. We realize that without change and discomfort there is no growth and evolving. One of those changes is seeing our shadow self. Not only seeing but accepting those parts of ourself. - I have written many pieces about shadow work and healing. I believe in this work. I do believe that this type of work is essential in our ascension journey. - It is also a way to dismantle our Ego. Not everyone is the problem, something it is us. With our free will we decide for ourself to seek the change to end the problem and if not we continue to live in a life full of illusion and denial.   


The term ‘woke’ is a surface level label of awakening. We might be aware of all the illusions and mind-controlling games big corporations, mainstream media or ‘the big players’ are doing. Although the real question is are WE aware of our OWN illusions and control mentality that we have adapted from our conditioning. Those illusions and mind games have affected us and our psyche in some way or form. Part of ascension and awakening is being able to unlearn and remove ourself from those programming. To create our own programming that aligns with our true authentic self, the morals and values we follow. 

Many might denial this part of themselves, although each and one of us have and are living some sort of illusion. - The illusions of ‘self-love’ where we preach loving other women and ourself when in reality we can be vindictive once our expectations are not met. Not accepting our shadow aspect is living under the illusions that we only have light and love with us. When we are the dark and light, just like Yin and Yang. We have feminine and masculine energy, inner shadow and inner angel. Where we have the inner child and the Ego. We have the polarity with these experiences. Having to let go of the idea that we can not embrace more than one of our aspects of self is an illusion. We are multidimensional beings that can feel so many things at once. It is about being open to that idea as well. Not punishing ourself for feeling and being a million things at once. 

We live in a world where we are conditioned to compete and let go of parts of our authentic self. Where the real gain or sacrifice isn’t a gold medal or a huge lump of cash but the price we receive is an abandonment of our soul. 

Ways of selling our soul are very simple and don’t have to be so ritualistic. It could be simply as agreed to do something that does not align with the morals, values and beliefs. That is one way of selling our soul. - This term ‘selling our soul’ comes in a range of the spectrum. The definition is simply when we do not stay aligned with our authentic self. Where we accumulate abundance by casting illusions within us or others. Where we believe that if we go into a certain revenue of work we gain a higher level of abundance because it’s ‘in the down-low’. Or working for an organization or corporation that contradicts our authentic self and values, where we are not passionate about the work we do and leaving us drained each day after it. Being around groups of people who oppress and diminish our light because they are unaware of theirs. We then dim our light down for their comfort leaving us not to experience our own magic. Those environments are soul-crushing and chip away parts of our soul.   

We can retrieve back our soul fragments when we do our inner work. Accepting and embracing ALL parts of ourself; the ego, inner child, the feminine and masculine energy, the inner shadow and our inner angel. 

We can not be in alignment when we do not do the inner work. It’s us casting an illusion within ourself that we are in alignment. When in reality we aren’t. One way to know if we are in alignment is how easily we deal with issues and uncontrollable circumstances. How light we feel with all the chaos going on. Because with everything going on we know there is a purpose, a blessing in disguise. It’s just ‘***the tower moment’ that has happened within us playing out on a global scale. Many people all over the world have been doing the inner work and embracing their authentic self. - Everything that is being revealed and all the illusions that have been playing out must happen and have its own tower moments. Each and one of them must come down, so we as a collective can rebuild and create from a more authentic and transparent place that will reflect all the inner work we have done within. 

The inner work we do isn’t just for us nor does it only benefit us and our bloodline. It benefits the WHOLE COLLECTIVE. When we first awaken we realise we are all one and we are all connected in some form or shape. That the people we meet have and are our reflection in some way. They reflect either the inner child, our feminine and masculine energy, our inner shadow, our inner angel, our ego or the unhealed parts ourself. We get to see all parts of ourself play out in front of us and that is the same with others around us.

We also have multiple awakenings as there is never a time where we do not learn new information either about our external environment or about ourself. That is what life is really about is constant learning of oneself. When we see the beauty in others it’s a reflection of our own inner beauty that we might not be aware of, just yet. Some with the ‘toxicity’ we see on others, those parts we have within us. That is why we notice them. With our free will it is up to us to acknowledge BOTH parts and heal, accept, embrace, love etc. We were given free will for a reason. We have a choice to either face our WHOLE self or walk away from ourself. 

WE CHOOSE HOW WE PERCEIVE AND CREATE OUR REALITY WITH THE FREE WILL THAT IS GIVEN TO US; IT IS THERE FOR A REASON. 



*** The Tower is one of the major arcana in Tarot Deck which present a tower built in rocky foundations. Which ends up falling apart. This can be perceived in different ways. - Either way, it gives an opportunity to re-build a more solid foundation that will stand for a very long time. 


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Be Kinder, Less Critical


Understanding the Universe

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*** The Divine is God, The Creator, The Universe, our departed love ones and ancestor. The Divine lives through them. 


Splitting of the Worlds:

There some things we can't comprehend because of our perception during this period of time. Although there is a fog covering the big picture. This comes in having faith that there is a big picture. Each and one of us will have different reality, perception, seeing the world and definitions. 

We assume that other dimensions are 3D dimensional. The one we are currently in. Although entering dimensions come with aligning ourselves to the level of frequency of the dimension we are wanting to enter. As we and everything are made of energy. The universe communicates through energy frequency. 

There are different states of frequency you can channel into such as abundance, love, gratitude, kindness, compassion those are the higher state of being. We have shame, guilt, sadness, judgement which are in the lower vibrational frequency. Many operate on because a large amount of our society and population are still asleep. 

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KARMA:

What we put out onto the Universe comes back to us. Karma means lessons. Karma isn't bad, it is simply giving back what we have given out to the Universe. It is not about the action but the energy signature it has attached to the action. The energy we have projected onto the other parties involved in the action and to ourselves. How we treat ourselves is how the universe communicates with us. The highest form of communication is self-love. It's an indication to the Universe that we are learning and open to the Divine love each and one of us deserve. 

When we're getting off a Karmic Cycle we have to be able to identify and recognise ourselves as the Karmic from the people around us. Whether is the ones closest to us or the strangers. This comes with the level of self-awareness we have for ourselves and what is going within. 

Example(s): 

1. Getting involved in 3rd party situations. Where we've entertained others who are in partnerships and have entertained others while being in a partnership. Then having that betrayed happen to us, as our partner entertains others. 

2. Abandoning a friendship to be in with the 'cool kids'. Then having friends abandoned you, for only someone new to come in and be-friend you. You, yourself be-friending someone who has been abandoned or is sitting alone. 

3. Asking for help from person X for them to not come to help you. Then someone else comes to ask you for your help for you to turn away just like what happened with person X. Or you being the bystander and go offer the help someone needs. 

Getting off a Karmic Cycle is doing differently to what others did to you. It's about using our free will to do a different action and not continue the cycles (of the examples up above). Each of our cycles whether with our relationships, careers or with ourselves. They all go hand in hand. Meaning that each of them overlay one another as we are all connected. Each of ourselves is reflected/projected back to us, whether it's parts we need to heal (our inner child, masculine, feminine) or be able to recognise our Karmic self or even parts of ourselves that reflects the Divine and Higher Self. Which actually mean if we have learnt that lesson, as Karma is just the lesson. Each and one of us have inner child, a masculine, feminine, higher self and our shadow. We have to heal the parts of ourselves that are being suppressed and shamed. We do this by being compassionate, kind and understanding to those parts of ourselves.  



Manifesting and Divine Timing:

In Tarot the Magician represents manifesting. With manifesting the Magician has its tools, the wand, sword, cup and pentacle. That is similar when manifesting for ourselves. We have to have our emotions, truth, idea/material equipment and the action/passion. Without one we will just manifest what is missing. If we don't have the emotional availability for the manifestation then that is exactly what will manifest. A Karmic Cycle of finding that emotional availability within us. It seriously begins from within and then to our external. When we give ourself the love we deserve that gets reflected back to us. 

 Timing in the higher realm doesn't work the way we have been conditioned. It comes in perfect timing. Keeping the faith that certain events happen for a reason. During those events of waiting for our manifestation to come we learn new things about ourselves and gain a new level of sense of being. Which is required when receiving our manifestation. The Divine is never working against us, never has. From certain experiences, we gain a type of strength and courage that we aren't able to acquire if going in a different route. - The pains and suffering we have endured are valid and each and one of us have the right and deserve to heal. 



Heaven and Hell: 

There other forces within the Universe. Forces that do not have pure intention. Genis that will grant you wishes to only take it away and laugh at where it's gotten you. 

Every single one of us is capable (and our birthright) to connect with the Divine. As each and one of us are Divine being. It's just having to align ourself to the Divine we truly are. We live in a period of time where greed, power, control, superiority, material things and our Ego is heightened. Where certain information has been suppressed in a way to control the masses. 

The term Hell has been associated with being deep underground, surrounded by fire and devils poking you. We have been conditioned to compare Heaven and Hell and associating them when we die. When reality each and one of us have our own definition of Heave and Hell. Each and one of us have gone through some sort of Hell and Heaven. We always assume Hell is an external place that 'bad' people will go too once deceased. For some Hell has been right here on Earth, under their roof was the Devil. Hell isn't going to look the same for everyone. As everyone brings different ingredients for their fear and pain. 

The Devil isn't a person, it's an energy. Same to God. The energy that shifts within people. When you do a favour or sides with the devil. You've given the devil permission to use you. Handed him a piece of paper with your named signed.

 We do not need to die before we can indulge in Heaven. Earth is the Divine's creation. The devil didn't create Earth. It is our right as Divine beings to are creating our Heaven on Earth. 

 

Merging our Ego with the Eco(system):

We have easy access to our Ego as it's in our Conscious part of The Psyche, although very limited access to our Subconscious. It's been said that our Dreams are the way of our subconscious communicating. Our subconscious is always running. Our Ego is asleep when we're asleep that's why it's easier to access the high dimensions. Because our mind is quiet. The Ego is what we need to learn how to quiet down. This can be done through meditating.

Our Ego is something that can't be taken away. The term death of the Ego is metaphorical because it is reborn into the Ecosystem. Meaning that we have to reconstruct our way of thinking to merge ourselves with the Collective. Our Ego is the 'talking monkey' as the Monks call it. By meditating it helps quite that part of our mind. With the healing and reconstructing work, we do with our blueprints, which goes hand in hand with the death of our Ego. Our Ego has this sense of inferiority because of how the world is conditioned. We live in a patriarchal society where our masculine energy is embraced and our feminine energy is suppressed. When reality we have both energies within us. It's being able to find the balance for both. 

That's something we learn when we become more consciously aware of ourselves. That we are connected and we are not inferior from other humans and beings on this Earth. Mother Gai gives us everything we need and all she asks from us is to take care of ourselves and her. 

We humans are Mother Gia's shadow aspects. We present the greed, lust, power-hungry, egotistical mindset that many of us have today. Putting our self above others is Egotistical, in the context of taking and taking from others whether energetically, over-consuming food and product that are very harmful to the environment or suppressing other humans through discrimination. 

 

Spirit/Soul:

When someone comes to us with the same problem and the same mindset for a period of time, it becomes draining. It's not that we don't want to help. It's that their problem requires a change and which they are not open to. Creating resentment within the relationship and actually draining your energy (energy vamping). With our free will, we decide for ourselves if we want to continue that relationship. Nobody gets to decide for us. Don't make the decision base of pleasing everyone because we can't please everyone. It is unrealistic. Do it on the base of self-love and knowing we deserve growth and reciprocation. 

That feeling of being 'stuck' that's our soul communicating to us that it's time to move on, let something go or try something new. Doing the same routine over and over isn't going to bring in new opportunities. Same goes with not changing our perception when we are presented with new information. That is where the feeling of 'stuck' comes from not listening to our soul and our intuition. 

We can't complain if we doing the same thing over and over again. Then expecting the same result, that is the definition of insanity.

We are nothing without our Soul. We would be just awaking zombie in living human body, waiting to decay. What kind of life is that?

Our Spirits are free and living forever. It's on a continuous journey of knowing it's self and evolving. That's what our Spirit/Soul crave for is evolving and freedom. When we are conditioned and living in a world/society that is telling us that we have to be a certain way of living. This created friction within us because our Soul doesn't agree with it. It seems that way of living as an illusion of freedom. Where the system has created all these options for us to choose from, only realising that those choices aren't viable so we end up settling. The conditioning suppresses our Spirit. Mind you the conditioning I'm speaking of has been planted from 1700 by Wilie Lynch. Who introduced slave psychology. Where he speaks of breaking down a horse to become afraid of its own habitat. He referred to us as the horses. Where they become so afraid and unfamiliar of their natural habitat that they wouldn't even recognise it any longer. Example: Drinking water; many of us dislike drinking water and only drink sodas. Even being out in nature, where we a naturally and freely draw the energy of Mother Gai for healing and recharging every part of ourselves. 

It is time to think for ourselves and use our free will to create the reality and life we all deserve. -

We have a certain amount of time in this lifetime. Are we going to use our free will to go after and create the life we desire?



Be Kinder, Less Critical.